can you please color this?

ok thats it...

u lil... goddamn...

Laz... you do realize that we can't let go...

To lose a forum member is like losing an arm or leg... you'll get used to it but you will still miss it.

But you are working on UT skins right now... right?

That's good enough art for me... just post screenies when you get the skins done, you're not leaving forever.

You gave a good reason for leaving, and well... since you haven't really put out some new art in quite a while, I guess the drive to prevent you from falling into the abyss of anonymity is just gone.

Just post every once in a while like you do know... and everything will be fine.

Take Care Laz.

icbm1987

Errr... I don't need this S.H.I.T.! - from you or anyone!
What attention I did get has dwindled to nearly nothin' - AND DON'T YOU DARE SAY CUZ I STOPPED POSTING! - even when I was posting it dwindled.

I don't apprecicate your "Cage Laz" thread either- I find it quite offensive.

We're are not friends - we know very little of each other, you only email me to get me to color your art, and you don't even respond once I do finish a pic for you... you my like my work, and skills (for your own benfit) but you don't really give a damn either... so just LAY OFF!

I don't know why I've even bothered sticking around this long!
Since I get next to nil of acknowledgement for my work, and ppl don't change - there is NO reason for me to post - let alone stay.

IF I choose to leave - I will leave! That is final! I'm not posting any new work - cuz I don't get the acknowledgement I want to have.

If you Disrespect me again: I will officially announce my Permanent Departure!

My last contribution here will be the Chain comic - nothing else.

As for ICBM: I'm not going to post skins, they are my artwork - and my artwork here at WC3C are cared for...

You can find my old UT1 skins at skincity.beyondunreal.com - but I don't think I'll upload any new skins there either.

Sincerely,
A seriously pissed off LazarusX.

EDIT: I've not been in a great mood for a while either - and I get easily mad when I get pissed!

Goodbye Laz...

I won't feign to miss you... and I respect your decision.

And it was said that he walked into the distance and no tears were shed... In the end he was just a shade of a memory... beholden to only a select few... The traveler faded away like the dunes of sand on which he walked.

I'm talking of Laz in the past tense because I believe his decision has been made, he is vainly trying to find a reason to stay and not depart forever... he knows he wants to, and he will.

again... Goodbye, Shade of what once was.

icbm1987

dont take stuff seriously laz :(

ill close teh thread but it was a joke i wnted to get people to vote so ud see that we wnted you to stay :o

and dude... its not disrespect its jst a joke :?

im confused... u shudnt take it seriously... and if ur jst playing with me and are fakin to be mad... well ionno im mixed up now :(

-Seriously confused Candy Bar

hmmm maybe ur current bad mood shrouded ur thoughts and u wnt over-mad? hopefully... awww now i cant even... insert a korean happy face... and OMFG!!! ur gettin pissed at a lil 14 year old! WTF!

jst trying to do sumthing... tss!

Look kid, no offense but how you phrased your thread is what made me even more mad - caged!
Not only is that stupid as hell - how the f*ck would actually force me to stay and make pics?! - But the word - states I'm a lower lifeform - garbage, to which you have control over... - it doesn't matter the intent, poor wordage can create much conflict... wars and murders have happen on account of this - that it why it is important to watch what you say and how you say it.

I'm a rather serious person - sure I find some thing funny but humor is not me type. When envison something - it's not to create a uplifting atmosphere - I imagine only the cruel harsh reality of man pushed to the extreme; lies, deceit, betrayal, death, and destruction are all I can create - it's the way of the universe - that is how I am - I'm a loner wanting to aspire, to be recognized - but I'm really a negative person - which impedes my want to be liked.

Yes - I know your only 14, but there is no excuse for anything - there are no ' accidents'. A quick life lesson - the world is not a nice place, and it isn't getting better - it gets progressively worse. You must watch what you do and say in front of people, it is easy to forget that when its on a forum, because you wrong thing can close many doors. Back long ago ago ppl were more to the point and just killed you right off - now, they more civil, they make you suffer for years and years - screwing you every time they can.
On a forum there isn't a worry - because you don't have to look at people when you speak to them. But - that doesn't change the fact that words, no matter what you say, the topic, etc. have an effect on people. Whether it makes someone laugh, mad, sad, think your full of crap, or annoying - it still effects their think and view of you.

Can you even remember my name David N.? I told you once before but you mention by...

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I've gotten enough s.h.i.t. from just working at LE.
Having my work ridiculed..... ask me to make something, then drop it when I just about finish it..... say the skin they had me make is great, then say can you remake it..... (and the High hope crush! crap)..... oh the games going retail, oh sorry guys - lisencing issues - we can't go retail..... now lets enter the Million dollar mod contest, which the guy whois hosting it says we have great chances of winning - na, lets not - instead let switch engines to one thats not out yet and leave are fan base......

I don't want any more crap - Wormskull posting something non related to a thread and calling me an a.s.s.h.o.l.e! for no reason at all, people posting pics in my thread, just filling it with spam..... then when the point system comes in - my pics barely get rated (I've been here quite a while - and newer artist come in and get points galore) and people stop commenting on my work altogether (even if I post 1 or 10 pics - sketches or colored - good or great)

My expierence here has become very disappointing. And just because a couple of you suddenly pop-up when I say I'm not posting/leaving, telling me to stay, it's going to make any difference? None of you have changed at all - to make feel welcome again - to re-ignite my spark to post here again.

How many of you actually done anything for me? I've always helped otheres, colored pics and done some requests for people. But, I haven't got any return on my generocity, except comments on my work - but stopped.

What do I owe this community - when none of you can even talk to me!?
This was the only place I felt comfortable posting, and you just made the event uneventful for me. (Meaning if I leave this forums for good - I won't be anywhere else on the net - I will be gone for good)

I think your digging a hole you can't get out of Laz, If you do leave, I think you should leave in honor. Only then we won't forget you.

Then they saw the figure stop and set up on a hill... begging for a reason to feel worthwhile so that he could come back... but no reason came... so he wrote a note... and tied it to a rock... that rock landed in the middle of the town square... and all looked at it and pondered... then... they thought it best that he was leaving... he had earned his freedom.

Laz... I was right... you are a dead man in this community... the only ones who respond to you are those who knew you before... none of the newcomers even know who you are.

as for society not treating you well... F.UCK SOCIETY!!! FIGHT THE MAN!! You are NOT society's tool... and the only things binding you to it are the strings of your weakness. You are an intelligent person... I had thought you would have figured this out yourself.

You have let society enslave you Laz... and you are afraid to leave that slavery.

YOU WANT TO FEEL LIKE YOU'RE WORTH SOMETHING? YOU AREN'T!!! IM NOT!!! and I'm not complaining about it.

One final question... Did god create man? or did man create god?

That is the final question that you must ask yourself... If you do believe that god created man... you are lost... because then you will always have the pitiful human idea that you have to have a purpose... that you have to be worth something. You have no self-worth... you are unable to convince yourself that you are worth anything without confirmation from the outside... humans are pitiful creatures... your rant gives me hope that you will save yourself.

some advice: ... leave... just go... be free again.

Goodbye again Laz... walk over the next dune and don't look back... there is nothing for you here.

to Candy: SHUT UP!!! YOU ARE AN IMMATURE IDIOT AND YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT LIFE IS SERIOUS AND NOT A JOKE!!! GROW UP!!! CHILDHOOD IS ONLY WORTH SOMETHING TO A CONFORMIST SOCIETY... THAT IS WHEN THEY MANIPULATE YOU INTO PART OF THE HERD. LET HIM GO!!! DEATH IS NOT SAD!! IT IS A FACT OF LIFE!!! I HOPE ONE OF YOUR RELATIVES DIES SO THAT YOU CAN REALIZE THAT!!!

to moon: Honor is a societal construct... he needs to free himself of society... f*** honor!

icbm1987

Thx for the words ICBM..

they were touching - and befitting to my darker personality.

But, even the few who knew me from the beginning don't post comments to me. The only ones that I've had a good line of communication it Tempest and Xmetallium.

I want to be accepted, but this place is just not doing it for me anymore...

As for the question of god and man....
of course - it is a simple answer... man created god to fill a void of fear, which they cannot explain - and will not. Any who thinks otherwise is merely ignorant and doesn't want to face the cold, merciless reality that is life. They say god created man to create a false image of that there is a devine purpose for their existence. Which provides security in their life.

If it was god that created man - why so many religons, so many gods. No matter how good the intent of the religon - it is ruin by mankind's nature, misusing, manipulating, and rewriting "holy" rules for ones own personal benefit and insanity. Think of all the wars and murderes done in the name of religon.... it sickens me how twisted things can get.

And, why all the pain and suffering, disease, deceit, and wars? God doesn't care about us - he lets us choose are destiny - to make are own mistakes, to make are own accomplishments without interfering, else why bother with this life?

My time here is diminished - the pleas, redundant. It is time for me to leave - back to the rift from which I came. I have spent over 6 months here.... and the luster of the spotlight has long burned out....

I have made commitments that I will keep - The chain comic being the biggest one. After they are done - I won't be posting at all from then on.

Now, another day fades away. Leave the Fallen to fade away upon the sands of time. Forgotten.

Let not another tear fall,
Let not our minds dwell
On our sorrows...

Let not the memories of pain
And horror haunt us.
Let not the screams torment us.

Let us look upon the unknown
Without fear, and upon the
Heavens with only hope.

Farewell,
Lazarus X: The Fallen Lord

I believe religion (no offense to ANYBODY, just my personal opinion) was created so that man wouldn't fear death (hence heaven), then the church turned it into a source of power and control (hence hell).

as much as I'd like Lazarus X to stay, and as much as I'd like getting points for this, this is turning to a spam! please stop posting in that subject here!

It may be semi spam Uri... but we are tying up loose ends... And there are kernels of knowledge in these threads.

I see the traveler gone across the sands... his leaving gives me no remorse.

icbm1987

hmm Icbm that was sum quite serious words there... except for the flame part :/ but yea maybe laz has to go... and that he hates me... and he takes things more seriously...

and hell ur turning it into sumthing real dramatic... if one of us wud drop dead and never post again maybe wed never know what happened to him, ever.

K... so ur gonna leave us cuz we stopped paying attention to your art, commenting, rating it... and also cuz of me...

hmm i say we shud blame me and the rating system...

but anyhow if ur leaving for good, ill still remember you :/ even if ur kinda pissed at me ^^

Good Bye Mickeal 'Lazarus X' Gilmour

actually... I live in a place with alot of terrorist attacks.... I just might not be here tomorrow.... so if I stop posting all at once it is more likly that my computer broke down and I can't post or I'll just think this forums are stupid. believe me Lasarus X, most of us will always remember you. you are truly one of a kind. your art is matched only by the best of this community. I know that people don't rate your art, but they still find it the one of the best. you really post alot of art, most of it incomplete. it is difficult to keep rating each and every one of them.

please don't leave us! we love you more then you think(ehh in a good way)
everyone: we love you Lasarus X!

now please! post this think in another place! what about Lasarus X's gallery?

Let him go. His reason for sharing his art with the community isn't being fulfilled. He has no reason to stay, as personal communications could just as easily be kept in private (email/chat programs).

Goodbye, Laz. ^^ Try not to be too serious; it's a terrible waste. Wish I could've known ya a bit better, but as I mentioned before, you withdrew just before I came around.

Take it easy~